What we've been up to..

   While we are STILL working on getting our computer(s) to work,Yeah, we have multiple computers that hate us, this post is being typed on my iPhone. Wonder why I haven't updated in forever? Because typing up a blog post on my phone is all kinds of obnoxious... Yet here I am. Everyone is in bed, so I just figured I would update our life. 

     Halloween and thanksgiving have come and gone. Austin is 6 months and Connor is 2.5. These boys are amazing. Halloween was so much fun this year.A was tigger and C was Peter Pan. I wish I had been more creative. Every year I say im going to get creative, and then it sneaks up on me. C could have cared less if he was a princess as long as he got candy. It was absolutely adorable to see him say "twick or tweet!" A just fell asleep in the Ergo! Ha. Thanksgiving was nice. Just the 4 of us! Adam cooked our entire meal. Including the 2 pies with homemade pie crusts. Uhm, keeper? :) yes. We are staying in Houston for Christmas as well. Kind of sad we won't see family, but looking forward to new traditions. We are moving to Cali in February and it would just be too much. Adam gets promoted to staff sergeant in January too :) yay! So proud of him. I am so looking forward to Cali and NOT being on recruiting duty. 

      As for Austin. He's doing awesome. At his 6 month appt, he was 16.5 lbs and 26.5 inches long. He's between 35-45 percentile. Smaller than Con, but also breastfed. Yep, we are still breastfeeding and lovin it! We just started solids. He really loves sweet potatoes. I have been making his food and also doing baby led weaning. He seems to enjoy food, but is definitely a boobie baby. He is sitting up and saying dada! He is so happy and sweet, and he loves to be worn. My next post is going to be a post all on babywearing. I've had a lot of mamas ask me questions, so i think I'm going to dedicate a post to it for some information :) it can be a bit overwhelming, so id love to help if i can. That pretty much sums up the life of the hills lately! Nothing super exciting. Just lovin our minis and enjoying the Holidays :)

4 months!

Okay, I am blogging!? Our computer charger broke, so I haven't been getting on the computer. Yeah, this is being typed on my iPhone so bare with and don't expect a long post.

  The other day I was breastfeeding while babywearing my cloth diapered baby, and I was cooking dinner with coconut oil. I had to stop and say,"who the hell am I?" Really.. I did that. I have gotten really awesome at multi-tasking and being weird, I mean crunchy. Okay, weird.
  I am very proud to announce that we are still breastfeeding, and Austin is super healthy! At his 4 month appt he was 15 lbs and 25 in long. It is amazing to know that he is growing because my body is providing the nutrition he needs. As I LOVE it! It is an incredible bond, but really it is so easy! Here is a boob. No bottles or formula to pack in the diaper bag. I have nothing against formula, I just love the convenience of my boob containing the milk. Getting through the first couple of months is key to success. I swear Austin nursed constantly, not to mention our rocky start. But I haven't pumped in weeks! I did give him a bottle to make sure he took one the other day though. My mom is coming for the USMC ball and he needs I take a bottle. He takes it! Looks at me like wtf, but drinks it! I pumped a lot in the beginning so I have over 200 oz in the freezer. I was worried about over supply tho, so I just stopped. Plus, pumping sucks. My goal was to feed from the tap and we are doing it ad doing it well.
  As for the babywearing shenanigans. Yep, I'm obsessed with wearing my kids (Connor likes it too) and I love the pretty wraps! We are having so much fun with it. I am positive that I am so annoying, but I don't even care. Wearing A allows me to do fun things with C. We bake cookies, dance, have pillow fights, read.. All the while A is passed out on my back! L-o-v-e. Love.
  Connor is potty training still. This is hard. If he's naked, he will go potty, every time. If he is wearing underwear, guaranteed poopy pants. So, he's naked all day. I'm trying to come up with something to prevent poopy pants, but For now he just runs around with no pants on. I think our trip to VA kinda threw him off too. Meh. As long as he is potty trained before kindergarten!
  I will update more on our lives later, tho I'm sure the copious amounts of pictures I post on FB and Instagram are enough! 😊

Austin is 2 months!

    Austin was 2 months old on Sunday, and today we had his 2 month checkup! First off, I cannot believe he is already 2 months (9 weeks today)! I feel like I just had him, and the time is flying even faster than it did with Connor. I am very happy and proud to say that we are still breastfeeding. Yeah, I know it has only been 2 months, but that is our first milestone! I stopped breastfeeding Connor around 5/6 weeks for a bunch of different reasons, but this time we are still going strong, despite our difficulties in the beginning. Breastfeeding is hard, ya'll. I haven't met one mom who has said it has been easy peesy from the start. Austin was 11 lbs 8 oz and 22.5 inches long today :) That is 2 lbs gained and 1 inch growth from his 1 month appointment. Technically, 30 ounces, but whatever. That is about 1 ounce a day which they said they like to see them gain about 1/2 an ounce to 1 ounce a day. SO, Austin is right on track! He is about in the 40th percentile for everything. Height, Weight, Head size. Perfectly proportionate! I stopped pumping and bottle feeding right after his 1 month appointment, and he has obviously been an efficient eater. I pump once a day, at night, since he goes longer in between feedings, and I want to drain the girls. So, I have stored over 200 oz of breastmilk... that I have hardly used at all. Yikes. Saving a lot for the Marine Corps ball in November though, since we are staying over night.

   Austin has been SO interactive lately. He really coos and giggles at my voice. I love that little smile, and I love that his personality is really starting to shine through. I think he is going to be more laid back but goofy like his big brother. Connor is 'go, go, go' constantly, so I'm curious to see how Austin is. He loves Connor, and Connor absolutely loves Austin. He calls him "brudder" and still says "Aushtin." It is precious. It is still hard with 2, haha, and I am not sure when it gets easier. I really feel stretched thin between the 2 boys. I am trying to balance the time, but Austin is super demanding where Connor is really independent. Though, Connor still wants me to play and watch him do things. Nursing sessions have gotten better, Austin typically goes 2 hours, sometimes 3 in between feedings, so I can play more with Con. Getting out of the house is quite the challenge. Last Friday we went on a playdate with our friends Kelly and Brady who is Con's age. They had a blast, and I was able to leave the house and have Austin sleep the whole way. He nursed in the ring sling during the playdate, and he did great during lunch too. But, it took us OVER AN HOUR to leave. It was an hour away from home, and I tried to feed him before we left, but he was tired and fussy. It was super stressful sitting in the car for over an hour trying to feed him and then get him to sleep. I definitely forgot how hard road trips are with a little baby.Yeee. But, we are figuring it out, and each week gets a little easier.

   Connor is doing awesome! He is SO big. He holds conversations with us, and still LOVES his daddy, or Adam, as he calls him. Haha. Adam hates it, but what can ya do? Connor has really good manners, and is a really good kid. He is so so busy, but I love it. His favorite things are Mickey Mouse, building things, his motorcycles, singing songs and his daddy. He loves to swim and play outside, and he is just such a fun guy. FULL of personality. I love this kid! We haven't officially started potty training yet. I haven't decided if I want to start now or wait until after our 2 week visit to Virginia in August. I might go ahead and buy big boy underwear and start introducing the potty more. He has gone a lot on the potty, and he knows what it is for, but he still likes those diapers. Ugh. I am over changing his big butt, though! haha.

Well that's how our life has been going this past month :) Enjoy some sweet pics of my boys!

A new adventure.

   Quite a lot has changed in my life since the last post! Austin is now 7 weeks old and such a little joy. He is a really happy baby with a lot of gas! Better out than in, I say, but really, I am nervous he is going to rip one in public. I don't think anyone will believe it is him. haha. He has been sleeping really well for the most part. He sleeps from about 7 or 8 - 10 or so, and then he goes back to sleep until about 2, and then sleeps until about 5 or 6. So, I'm only technically getting up once at night. I roll over to nurse him in the morning (so convenient). Breastfeeding is going really well. Better. Austin has gotten really efficient with his feedings. He can eat in about 20 minutes and eats about every 2 hours during the day. I've been out in public quite a few times with him and have gotten really comfortable nursing in public. Now that he is getting older, I am more comfortable going out with the 2 boys. Today we had a play date with my friend Tressie and her kids, and next week we are going to meet up with Kelly & Brady. I, of course, feel super guilty that Connor has been stuck at home all summer. Adam and I went and bought him a big pool last weekend and he loves it! I know that the guilt is something all moms go through, but I am getting much better with dividing my time. At only 2, Connor is really understanding. He understands when I need to hold/feed/console Austin. He helps as much as he can, and he just loves his brother so much. I knew he would be a great big brother, but he surprises me daily with how incredibly sweet he is to Austin. I love them more than life. It is really an amazing thing, how your heart expands when you have your second child. I never knew I could love 2 tiny humans as much as I do. After Connor, I couldn't imagine loving another child as much as him, and you just do.

   In other news, Adam got his orders. Camp Pendleton, California. He called me on Tuesday and asked me if I was in a good mood. I said, "sure.." and he proceeded to tell me that he got orders to Camp Pendleton. We have a house in Camp Lejeune, NC, and we were told that after recruiting duty, he got his pick of where his next duty station would be. LIES. Talking to him I tried to hold my shizz together. That's what we military wives do. Never let our husbands see us fall apart. He could hear my voice crack, and I told him I was okay and would talk to him later. I got off the phone with him, cried for a few minutes, put my big girl panties on, built a bridge and got over it. The more we talk about it, the less dread I feel and the more excited I get. I have only heard wonderful things about Camp Pendleton. 60s/70s all year round, tons of stuff to do for us and the kids, and the beach! Yes, we are literally an entire country away from family, but we knew it was a possibility. And in good news, I am closer to my bff, Lauren and my godbaby :) But, yeah, that is huge news. We will be pcs'ing in late February/early March. Adam getting his orders means that recruiting duty is almost over. We can see the light at the end of this tunnel!! What a relief.

Oh. I signed up for Weight Watchers as well. Going good. Down 5 lbs in the first week and can zip and button my pre- pregnancy jeans!! Yeehaw!

Ill leave you with some snapshots of my boys! Enjoy the sweetness.

Life with two

     I'm still figuring out this mom of 2 thing. Juggling a 2 year old, a newborn, diaper bag, and keeping my sanity is no easy task. Yesterday, I locked my keys in the car at Kroger. Luckily I had both boys out of the car though. It was 100 degrees outside, so inside my car it was way hotter. I would have busted a window if I had to, but they were both safe with mommy. Thank God. Today, I had my 6 week postpartum checkup. I don't know what I was thinking, but I figured it would be a quick, "hey look your scar is fine" and we'd be done. No, I had an exam. With both boys in the room with me. Getting there alone was enough hassle. I didn't allow myself enough time to get ready. Word of advice: allow at least 2 hours to get ready and out of the house. I needed to leave the house at 9:45. Austin woke up to nurse at 7:30, Connor woke up to eat breakfast around 8:15. I got in the shower at 8:30.. Austin was crying&Connor was crying b/c he wanted me to open a bottle of lotion (while I was in the shower), so I showered in all of 5 minutes, opened the bottle of lotion? and grabbed Austin. He was hungry, so I threw on the ring sling and nursed him while I started blow drying my hair. When I went to get Connor's clothes for the day, I heard him cry because he touched my straightener even though I told him not to because it is hot. He knows what that means. He has been burned before when he climbed up Adam's motorcycle while it was still hot. Anyway, I changed him, burped Austin and quickly finished getting ready. Which resulted in me looking half homeless. Leggings, blouse, hair in a bun, shoes half on, and funky makeup. Oh well! The boys are ready. I learned my lesson on allowing more time to get ready. Finally, we were off. I kept my cool b/c I know kids feed off of your energy and acting stressed would only make it worse. Luckily, I snatched the Ziploc bag of lactation cookies I made last night. I took the umbrella stroller for Connor and carried the car seat b/c the doctors office is too small for the double stroller, and wearing Austin wasn't an option given the dr apt was for me. Talk about hands full of kids. We were only 5 minutes late, and I'm glad we were late b/c we had wait 20 minutes in the waiting room. When we finally got back to the exam room Connor was 4 cookies deep. I walked in and realized I was getting an exam. Oh God, seriously?? Austin was nursing, and Connor was 6 cookies deep when the doctor came in. I nursed the entire time, and Connor was a perfect angel since by the time we left he had eaten about 8 lactation cookies (the entire bag). By the time I gt home, I wanted to pass out on the couch, but it was only noon. NOON. Con and Austin both were hungry, so I fed them both, got Con down for a nap, & scarfed down lunch before Austin wanted to eat again. And now he is eating while I write this post.

Austin isconstantly nursing still, so I had to figure out a way to nurse him hands free-ish. I ordered a ring sling, and if you are a mom of 2 with a toddler and nursing, I highly recommend one. I can throw on the sling, and throw Austin in it to nurse without feeling like I'm going to lose an arm. I typically hold his head just to give him some comfort, but it takes the weight off of my arm while I am making Connor a sandwich or chasing him down. Con has been really good with "Aushhtin" still. He is a big help, and if Austin is crying he says, "It's okay baby, it's okay." Despite the craziness each day brings, I am constantly reminded of my blessings. Thank God for my boys. All 3 of them.

One month old!!?

    I cannot believe that Austin is one month old! This is crazy. Time is already flying by. He had his appointment today, and he is 9lbs 10oz and 21.5 inches long. So, he has gained 1lb 5 oz (21 ounces) in 2 weeks and grew 1 inch! If you remember, the nurses were concerned that he wasn't gaining fast enough and tried to get me to supplement with formula. Well, I didn't. Instead, I pumped and bottle fed for about a week while finishing the feeding at the breast, and then I slowly started cutting out pumping sessions. Right now I am only pumping at night :) So, Austin gained that weight b/c of MY milk and his eagerness to nurse! I can't even begin to explain how happy that makes me. The nurse walked in and said, "are you putting miracle grow in it? Are you supplementing? Just breastmilk??" haha. No, No, and Yes! Austin is finally eating more efficiently at each nursing session, and I don't feel like I need to top him off with the bottled milk. By the way, I HATE pumping. Ugh, not only is it time consuming and inconvenient, as I sit there and pump my boobs, but it is just uncomfortable. I would much rather put Austin on the boob, which I've been doing all day. I'm actually going to stop pumping so much at night as well. He seems to be more awake when he is hungry now, so I think he will drink efficiently. I have stored 50 oz of breastmilk in the freezer though! So, one good thing that has come out of our struggle is that my supply is up and I'm able to store breastmilk for a rainy day. (Or a 6 pack) ;) I made lactation cookies yesterday (who am I?) and they are delicious. Technically, I only really need like 2 a day, but uhhh, I've been eating way more. woopsy! I am mailing some out to a couple of girlfriends who just had babies too :) Anyway, enough of that. Austin is much more alert and awake during the day. He typically takes a long nap in the afternoon when Connor does. How did I get so lucky? And he sleeps well at night. He is waking up on his own now to eat though about every 3-4 hours. I really cannot complain about that. I feel tired, but drink my 1/2 caff coffee and trudge through the day. His belly button is finally normal and soo cute! He is "looking so great." (the words of his nurse). Connor is still loving his brother, helping me with Austin as much as he can being that he is 2. He tries to help him and keep him from crying by shoving Austin's paci in his mouth, finding a bottle and shoving that in his mouth, or hugging him (squishing the life out of him). Typically it makes Austin cry more, but Connor sure does try, so I just say "aww thanks baby, but he needs to breathe now." I really do love my 2 boys. While the days seem much shorter, I smell like sour milk, my makeup is smeared IF it is even on my face, my hair is a hot mess, and my wardrobe tends to be pajamas and a nursing tank, I wouldn't have it any other way. :) I am learning to make it work with 2 babies, and looking back to the first couple of weeks when I thought Connor hated me and I was seriously struggling, I just smile to myself. We all go through this transition, but once you get out of the first couple of weeks, it is a fun ride. I love my boys! I am about 13 lbs away from pre-pregnancy, but I am going to start walking with the boys as soon as I can. I am finally feeling like myself again, and I'm not being too hard on myself. I know I will get to pre-pregnancy. My goal is by the time Austin is 3 months. I don't think that will be too hard. Nursing makes me hungry!! Anyway, just wanted to update! It is much harder updating every week, so don't expect it ;)

Austin is 2 weeks!

   Austin is 2 weeks old today, and he is still such a good baby. (Knocking on wood right now). He is much more alert these days, eating every 2-3 hours, and pooping every 5 minutes. He was sleeping 6 + hour stretches until his doctor appointment last week. I had to take him in to the doctor on Thursday to have them check out his umbilical cord, which they had to cauterize 3 times.. When they weighed him, he had lost an ounce from what he weighed when he left the hospital. The next day he lost half an ounce more. I knew it was because he was sleeping through nighttime feedings, but I had always heard that you never wake a sleeping baby. He would miss nighttime feedings, and he also fell asleep at the boob almost every time he ate. I was in tears, and the Nurse Practitioner told me I should supplement with formula. She went and got Enfamil, handed it to me, and told me to feed him 2 oz breast milk and 1 oz formula every 2 hours. I was shocked, upset, and disappointed. Needless to say, I trusted my body & my mommy instincts to NOT supplement. Instead, I power pumped, nursed, and gave him expressed Breast milk at night and during the day. When we went back to the DR for a weight check on Monday, he gained 7 ounces, and by Thursday he was up another 3 ounces and back to his birth weight. :) Let me just say though, I am not on my soap box. Breastfeeding is something that I really want to do. I understand some mom's can't or don't want to and that is okay. I believe breast is best, and so I am going to do all that I can to breastfeed Austin. I nursed Connor as well, but stopped at 2 months for several different reasons. Anyway, we are in love with this little perfect addition to our family. He is so sweet and squeezable. Con loves him, and I know they are going to be best friends.

Birth story to 1 week old

     My birth story is pretty uneventful, and that thrills me :) I had such a wonderful experience delivering Austin. The anticipation leading up to the C-section was intense, but I was surprisingly calm about it. My mom got here last Monday night/Tuesday morning around 1:30 a.m. I couldn't really sleep that well, so we hung out for a little bit, and then we went to sleep. The next morning I was calm and excited. Adam and I took off for the hospital around 10:00, and we waited until they called us back to the pre-op room around 11:00. When we got back to the pre-op room, they had the baby stuff all set up, and I got ready to be wheeled back to the OR. The doctor came in around 12:00, and we were off! I have to say, I hate the epidural. Especially because I wasn't in pain before I got it. It hurts, but only for a few seconds, so it wasn't all that bad ;) Once everything was administered, I waited for my hubs to come back! I didn't feel nauseous at all, and I was just chillin. Adam and I were chattin, and we smelled burning skin. I asked the Doc if he started, and he started laughing, and said, "yes, did you not want me to?" At 12:25 p.m., our sweet Austin came out pink and screaming. He is absolutely perfect. He weighed 8 lbs 5 oz, and was 20 inches long. Adam walked him back into the post-op room, and I waited as they sewed me up. Longest 30 minutes of my life. I wanted that baby! Once I got to post-op, they immediately put Austin on my chest for some skin-to-skin. He wiggled down and then started to nurse. Amazing. He stayed there for a good hour before they took more vitals and rinsed him off. Then, we were wheeled into our post-partum room. Austin nursed, pooped 6 times, and nursed some more. I had minimal bleeding, and everything was great. Mom and Connor came up to visit not long after, and he was less than thrilled. He was sweet, but didn't really want much to do with his baby brother. I think seeing me with an IV scared him. The next morning, they removed the IV, and I was able to stand up and walk to the bathroom. I was so surprised that the pain was minimal. I remember after Connor, I thought I was going to die when I had to stand up for the first time, but I know that was due to the trauma my body went through. Our hospital stay was very brief. We were only there for 2 days, and they let me go home. My doctor came in on Wednesday and asked me when I wanted to leave. I had no complications, and Austin had no complications. He didn't leave my side except when the nurse took him to take vitals a couple of times. Other than that, he basically stayed on my chest breastfeeding and snuggling. I can't even tell you how amazing it feels to have a full term, healthy baby and a great recovery. I just want to say to the mommas who had a difficult first pregnancy and delivery.. It doesn't mean your second pregnancy and delivery is doomed. I trusted my OB, I trusted my body, and I trust God. Anyway, Wednesday night, my OB came in to circumcise Austin, and we left Thursday afternoon!! It was insane. I stayed 11 days in the hospital with Connor, and I was home after 2 days in the hospital with Austin.

    The first couple of days home were an adjustment. As soon as I got home, Connor reached up for me to hold him. Obviously I couldn't, and we both cried, but my husband distracted him and has been incredible throughout it all. Every time Connor saw me nursing the first couple of days he would cry, and he wanted nothing to do with me or "baby." Friday morning, I boohooed thinking Connor hated me, and I just felt extreme guilt. I know that everyone goes through a transition period, but it is really hard. Well, Adam took him to Chuck E Cheese and kept him occupied the next morning. That afternoon when we got home, Connor was much better. He gave me hugs and kisses and he even laid down with me and Austin. I was snuggling both of my boys, and I was in heaven. Connor came around really quickly, and now he is amazing with his baby brother, whom he now calls "Austin" :). He brings me his pacifier, blankies, and kisses and rubs Austin's head. He is an awesome big brother, and I am so blessed. Connor even helped us give Austin his very first bath. It was really special. I cannot imagine not having my boys. All 3 of them! My husband is absolutely amazing. He was there by my side, and yet he was there for Connor. He has been so patient and loving, and I am a lucky lady.

   As for Austin's first week, he has been such an angel. I am just waiting for it to end. Haha. I know that sounds awful, but I am convinced it won't last. Breastfeeding is going wonderfully. He latched from the moment he was laid on my chest, and he has been great ever since. He has been sleeping, eating, and pooping around the clock. At night, he has been sleeping in 5 hr stretches before waking up to eat/poop. I'm so confused! I actually freaked out b/c I tried to wake him to eat and he just would NOT latch. He wanted nothing to do with my boob, and I finally gave up and he fell asleep. I let him sleep, and sure enough, he woke me up when he was ready. I've only pumped one time because in all honesty, I don't want to bottle feed if I don't have to. I have an adorable nursing cover that looks like a wrap, and I'm not shy about breastfeeding this time around at all. With Connor, I was really shy about it, so it was stressful trying to pump before leaving the house, etc. I do plan on pumping to keep up my supply though. I have an electric pump, but a good friend let me borrow her manual pump, and I really like that.  Austin's first doctor appointment was Friday morning. Mom went with me while Adam took Con to chuck e cheese. Austin left the hospital weighing 7 lbs 12.5 oz & Friday he weighed 7 lbs 13 oz. My milk came in Thursday/Friday, so I'm hoping he has gained back what he lost by this Friday at his next appointment. He eats 10-12 times/day, even with his long stretches at night. The rest of the weekend we just soaked in the sweet new baby, and I dreaded Monday morning when Mom had to leave. She was such a huge help, and it is SO hard saying goodbye. Connor calls her "Nia" instead of Nana, and she loves it. They really bonded, and of course she hated saying bye to Austin. But, we settled in as a family of 4, and life is so good. Here are a few pics of my sweet boy!

Austin James Hill

39 weeks.

   Tomorrow is the big day. I wasn't going to post until Austin arrived, but I figured I would write about the anticipation I feel. The flood of emotions I feel right now are excited, nervous, scared, calm, happy, and relieved. Mostly, I have a sense of peace about it. Of course, in the back of my mind I think about last time, but I'm definitely not focusing on the negative. I'm not thinking about the recovery and the guilt I feel leaving Connor. Instead, I'm thinking about the fact that tomorrow we will become a family of 4 after a healthy pregnancy. I'm thinking about Connor gaining a baby brother, and while he might not be ecstatic about it at first, I know he is going to love his brother. I read that a sibling is the best thing you can give your child, and I do believe that. I have the best times with my sisters, and I know my boys are going to have a blast. I cannot wait for that. I am focusing on the fact that this time, I hope I automatically get skin to skin contact and can breastfeed within an hour of delivery. Right now, I am sitting here watching Austin wiggle around in my tummy, and it is so strange to know that tomorrow he will be in my arms instead. I am SO excited! I wonder what he will look like, how big he is going to be, and I can't wait to see my husband love on his new son.

   I thought that the night before my C-section I would be freaking out, but like I said, I feel really calm about it. God is in control, and that is a really peaceful feeling :) And let's be honest, I'm ready to NOT be pregnant anymore. While I really enjoy feeling him move around, these last few weeks have been rough. From back pain, to exhaustion, to just being gigantic.. I'm done. He's done cooking, and it's time he gets in my arms :) I will post pics on here and facebook as soon as I am settled with my little family!! Prayers are greatly appreciated. Love to you all!

38 weeks!!

         Oh my gosh. I honestly cannot believe I am making this post. 38 weeks!! This is my last "pregnant" post. Next post will be the introduction of my sweet boy! Today's doctors appointment was highly anticipated, and I was super nervous. I guess because it was my last appointment, and if I made it through today I could breathe a huge sigh of relief. I can't really explain the feeling I have, making it this far in my pregnancy after having a premature baby and complications in my previous pregnancy. I am sure I have momma friends who can relate though. I've done my best to enjoy this pregnancy, but I can't say that I haven't been brought to my knees on many different occasions. I know that God has his hand on me, and I am going to continue to praise him and pray for a healthy, uncomplicated delivery next week. As far as how I'm feeling. Whew... so this is what 38 weeks feels like? :) I'm having a hard time complaining though! I mean, yeah, I have the aches/pains, constant trips to the bathroom, feeling like a whale, but I haven't been swelling and I'm so thrilled to have carried Austin this long! We are ready for him! I just have a few last minute things to do this week, my momma comes next Monday night, and Tuesday at 12 noon is my C-section!! Look for pics next week :)

How far along: 38 weeks

How big is baby: My Doc is guessing around 8 lbs 5 oz.

Total weight gain: Enough. :) but I'm happy with it which says a lot.

Maternity clothes: I'm down to a couple of dresses, but we only have a week left!

Sleep/Dreams: I haven't been sleeping well due to getting up every hour to pee.

Best moment of the week: Doctor's appointment today. Everything is going well still.. 38 weeks!!! Such a huge milestone.
  

Worst moment of week: I'm just uncomfortable.

Food cravings: Anything. I want to eat everything!

Aversions: Nothing really. I've been eating everything in sight.

Symptoms: Peeing every 5 minutes, back pain, exhaustion, being huge.

Movement: yep.

Have you Started to Show? Beluga whale

Gender: Boy :)

Labor Signs: Braxton Hicks and cramping.

Belly Button In or Out: flat.

Wedding Rings On or Off: On!

What I’m looking forward to: 1 week until my Austin makes his debut!

What I miss: I wouldn't mind a beer. :)

37 weeks. FULL TERM!

     A huge milestone for me. Austin is FULL TERM! I am so relieved that we have made it this far, and now to just get to 39 weeks! 15 days. Keep the prayers coming. My major goal at first was just to get further a long than I was when I had Connor. Once we passed that point, I wanted full term. At this point, I am just so happy that Austin has had 10 extra days to develop and grow than Connor did. My doctor's appointment went great today, and my doctor said that everything looks great. He measured my fundal height and said, "Thank God for C-sections, right?" meaning, Austin is big. Haha. For the record, I'd rather have a vaginal delivery, but I am doing what is safest for both me and Austin given the circumstances. (And, it's really difficult finding a doctor who allows VBACs). Anyway, my bp was still 120/80, and everything is going well. I have ONE appointment left next Monday, then, the next week I will have my sweet baby boy. This past weekend I installed the car seat. I have to say it is strange to see 2 car seats in the SUV. Today, Connor sat in the car and said, "babbbby!" I want to think he truly understand what is going on, but I don't think he does. He knows mommy is having a baby, but I don't think he gets it. He will soon enough though. Of course I worry about Connor, but I know he will adjust just fine, and he is going to be an awesome big brother :) I still feel good. Some days are better than others. If I do too much one day, the next day I pay for it with backaches and muscle pains. For the most part, though, I still feel good. I am just being really positive about it all, I guess, because I am desperate to make it to 39 weeks. Your perspective changes when you have had a baby in the NICU. The longer Austin cooks, the less chance of him being separated from me. I want skin to skin, breastfeeding, and my baby in my arms right away. So, please continue to pray for us!

It was cold Sunday at the park... I am running out of warm weather clothes ;)

How far along: 37 weeks

How big is baby: My doctor measured my fundal height today and then said, "Thank God for c-sections, huh?" haha. (No, I'd rather have a vaginal, but that should answer this question).

Total weight gain: Enough.

Maternity clothes: I pretty much stay in pjs unless we go somewhere. Then, I throw on a maxi dress.

Stretch Marks: Not yet. I'm waiting...

Sleep/Dreams: I've been waking up at like 5 a.m. and not able to go back to sleep. :(

Best moment of the week: Doctor's appointment today! It feels SO good to be FULL TERM!
 

Worst moment of week: Watching my arms jiggle in the mirror.

Food cravings: still craving that mint chocolate chip ice cream. Ugh.

Aversions: Nothing really. I've been eating everything in sight.

Symptoms: Peeing every 5 minutes, back pain, exhaustion, being huge.

Movement: yep.

Have you Started to Show? Beluga whale

Gender: Boy :)

Labor Signs: Braxton Hicks and cramping.

Belly Button In or Out: flat.

Wedding Rings On or Off: On.

What I’m looking forward to: 15 days!!

What I miss: Sleeping on my belly.

36 week survey I stole from a friend:)

How far along: 36 weeks 2 days

 

How big is baby: According to doctor, "Big." Technically he should be around 19 1/2 inches and over 6 lbs... gaining an ounce a day. Hey, me too!

Total weight gain: Don't worry about it. Less than I gained/weighed when I delivered Connor at 35 weeks, so that is good, right??

Maternity clothes: I wear whatever fits, which isn't a whole lot these days.

Stretch Marks: Not yet. I'm waiting...

Sleep/Dreams: Still having weird dreams/sex dreams (I'm just gonna come out and say it b/c I know every pregnant woman does), but I haven't been sleeping too great these past few nights. That makes me incredibly worthless during the day. My poor toddler!

Best moment of the week: Doctor's appointment. Hearing the heartbeat & knowing I have a healthy baby boy.

 Worst moment of week: Watching my arms jiggle in the mirror.

 

Food cravings: still craving that mint chocolate chip ice cream. Ugh.

Aversions: Nothing really. I've been eating everything in sight.

Symptoms: Peeing every 5 minutes, back pain, exhaustion, being huge.

Movement: yep.

Have you Started to Show? uhm. Is this a joke? I am a house.

Gender: Boy :)

Labor Signs: Braxton Hicks and cramping.

Belly Button In or Out: flat.

Wedding Rings On or Off: Still have them on & the are still loose.

What I’m looking forward to: 19 days from now! :)

What I miss: I want a pina colada.

36 weeks :)

       36 weeks!! I am officially the most pregnant I have ever been! This is a huge milestone for me, and I am so relieved. Every day that the baby is cooking in my womb is huge, and I am very excited. My doctor's appointment went very well today. No protein in my urine, and my blood pressure was 120/80. I'm nervous it is going to creep up, but it has stayed roughly between 115-125/70-80 this whole pregnancy, so I am still within my normal range. The doctor measured me today, and he said "you've got a big baby." Not surprised there. Connor was 6 lbs 13 oz at 35 weeks 4 days! I did test positive for the Group B Strep though. Bummer! It isn't a huge deal apparently, according to my doctor. He said that they will administer the antibiotics, and it will be fine. If that is my only problem, I will be thrilled. The contractions have been pretty rough this time! I didn't have them with Connor, so it is definitely different. Adam doesn't seem to really understand, but they are painful! Doctor told me today that if I have regular contractions and/or my water breaks to go to Labor and Delivery, obviously. He joked today that I probably won't make it to 39 weeks. I am sure I will though! I hope so! Please continue prayers for Austin and Me! I appreciate the support, prayers, and love!


How far along?: 36 weeks.
Sleep: Still sleeping okay, but up to pee a lot!
Best moment this week: Going to the beach and celebrating Connor's 2nd birthday! We had such a good time. Then, my doctors appointment went really well today. :)
Movement: He is crazy! Adam and I just sit amazed at how my stomach looks like there is a shark in there.
Symptoms: Headaches, contractions, full bladder, aches, pains, etc etc.
Food cravings: I've been loving some ice creaaaam. Mint choc chip to be exact.
Food aversions: I cannot stomach vegetable juice.
Gender: My sweet Austin. Boy :)
Labor Signs: Contractions here and there & lots of pains.
Belly Button in or out?: What belly button?
What I miss: Being able to sleep in any position I want without a pillow under my giant tummy.
What I am looking forward to: D-Day
Weekly Wisdom: Drink as much water as you can stand. It keeps the swelling down :)
Milestones: Austin is probably measuring about 19.5 inches and weighs about 6.6 pounds (or more). Doctor told me today that he is a big baby. Not surprised!
My milestone is this week! I am officially the most pregnant I have ever been! :)

35 weeks!

      35 weeks. This is the week that I had Connor. So far so good. Of course I am paranoid, but I'm trying to stay very positive. I pray every day that we make it to 39 weeks. Next week will be my huge milestone, and I will update after my appointment on Monday. Pray for us please! I am still feeling pretty good. I sleep well at night thanks to my crazy toddler. I have been getting crazy Braxton Hicks though, and I never got them with Con. Ouch! Weight gain has been very steady, so I haven't gained much the past few weeks. I have put on way less than I did with Connor at this point, and my pre-pregnancy weight was lower as well. I drink water constantly, and I've been eating very healthily. I still have aches and pains in my back, but I'm not surprised considering the size of my belly! I could seriously tip over, lol. I don't have a whole lot to update this week, but I will surely keep ya posted after my apt next week :)

How far along?: 35 weeks.
Sleep: I've actually been sleeping very well. I can thank Connor for wearing me out during the day!
Best moment this week: It's been an over all good week. I am looking forward to the weekend!
Movement: He has been moving a lot this week! I am pretty sure he hit a huge growth spurt, and he now "swims" around.
Symptoms: Headache, back pains, tiredness, feeling HUGE.
Food cravings: Watermelon :)
Food aversions: No real aversions, but I prefer fruits and veggies over junk.
Gender: BOY! Sweet Austin :)
Labor Signs: Braxton Hicks like crazy.
Belly Button in or out?: flat. lol
What I miss: Not having to pee every 4 minutes.
What I am looking forward to: Celebrating my big 2 year old this weekend!
Weekly Wisdom: Drink as much water as you can stand. It keeps the swelling down :)
Milestones: he's over 18 inches long and tips the scales at almost 6 lbs. Though, Connor was born this week and was almost 7 lbs!

Connor is TWO!

   I can't believe that Friday we will be celebrating Connor's SECOND birthday! My baby boy is about to be 2. What's crazy, is that I am in the 35th week of my pregnancy with Austin. I had Connor at 35 weeks 4 days. Friday I plan to take Connor out to the park, and then when Adam gets home we are going to do presents, cake & ice cream. Saturday, we are really going to celebrate Connor's birthday, and we are going to the beach for the day! I haven't been updating much on Connor since I've been blogging about the pregnancy. It's hard enough updating once/week! I pretty much keep everyone updated on facebook. Connor is hilarious, polite, adorable, and just a big goof. He really loves animals, his ride on cars, Mickey Mouse and anything outdoors. He will spend all day outside if we let him, which I usually do. He will play in the water spigot all day! I would much rather him be outside all day than sitting him in front of the t.v. Though, it is hard on me at this point in my pregnancy, trying to go in and out. Rainy days actually make me a little happy. I feel guilty saying that! He does love to watch Mickey Mouse Clubhouse and the new show Henry Hugglemonster (which I think is adorable). If I need a break, I turn on the t.v... guilty! Connor is starting to just talk sentences. This morning at the park, he walked up to this little boy and had a conversation. It was crazy. He is so polite, and I'm really proud of that. If he wants something, he will say "please and thank you" without me asking. He says "Please!" "Thank you Mommy." He is really good about saying sorry too, even if he didn't do anything. The little boy this morning ran into Connor almost knocking him over, and Connor said "Sorry." He says his prayers, well, he says "amen." It is the most adorable thing ever. He also says "Luhh you" a lot. My all time favorite of course. It is really hard to believe that 2 years have flown by so fast. These have been the best 2 years of my life. The hardest, most challenging, most rewarding, most loving, best 2 years of my life. :) Connor waits for Adam to get home at night and then wrestles with him. Connor is Adam's biggest fan for sure. He is obsessed, and I love it! I can't wait to have 2 little boys :) Happy Second Birthday my love. I am so amazed at the little person you have become and are becoming!

34 weeks!

   34 weeks. Phew. This feels like a milestone, but 36 weeks will be my big milestone. I had Con at 35 weeks 4 days, and I really want to make it all the way to 39 weeks when my C-section is scheduled. I had my doctor's appointment today. It went great. I was there last Thursday as well b/c I had headaches and dizziness. It went away though, and my doctor thinks it is due to my allergies this season. Or, just the fact that I'm getting really anxious as May approaches. Still, I was worried for obvious reasons. My blood pressure was 118/70 last week and 116/70 today. Those are actually the lowest it has been this whole pregnancy, so I'm praying it stays that way, and these headaches subside. I read that it could mean high bp, but it can also just be due to being big, uncomfortable, and poor posture. Anyway, I'm enjoying my pregnancy and hoping things continue to go smoothly. Today, the doctor also told me that Austin is laying sideways. That would explain a lot of the pain in my sides when he kicks. It doesn't matter how he is laying since I am having a C-section though. I'm hoping these next 5 weeks fly by. We are ready for Austin. I'm waiting for his coming home outfit in the mail, and his bassinet should be here this week or next week :) Anyway, not much more to report!


How far along?: 34 weeks.
Sleep: It's not too bad. I get up to pee a lot b/c I drink over 100 oz of water/day.
Best moment this week: Doc apt today. 34 week appointment and everything is still great.
Movement: He rolls and gets those feet stuck. Hurts! We learned that he is laying sideways today! Ouch.
Symptoms: Headache, back pains, tiredness, feeling HUGE.
Food cravings: Nothing in particular.
Food aversions: No real aversions, but I prefer fruits and veggies over junk.
Gender: BOY! Sweet Austin :)
Labor Signs: Nothing yet. Doc checked today when he did the GBS test, and obviously there isn't any progress. No big deal. I REALLY want to make it to 39 weeks!
Belly Button in or out?: flat. lol
What I miss: Putting my shoes on easily.
What I am looking forward to: May 21st :)
Weekly Wisdom: Inform your doctor of any worries, but try to remember that everything is "normal" in pregnancy.
Milestones: Austin is about 5 ½ lbs and measuring about 17 ½ inches. That's crazy to me!

33 weeks!

   6 weeks from tomorrow is my C-section date! SIX weeks. That is crazy to me! 2 1/2 weeks from today is when I delivered Con. It scares me, and every time I get a headache (thanks allergies), feel light headed, or just feel off, I panic. It is hard because the signs of pre-eclampsia can mimic any "normal" symptoms of pregnancy, but I check my bp a couple of times a week at CVS. I know that the machines aren't always super accurate, but it has proven to be pretty accurate up to this point. I have also not been swelling at all. My wedding rings fit loosely and I can still see the bones in my feet/hands. My face looks more round, but that is probably partly attributed to the weight gain. Which is 31. Tragic, but less than I had gained with Connor at this point, and I've been really good with my nutrition. Last week was pretty uneventful. Adam worked late, and Connor and I had a lot of errands to run. Saturday, Adam had a CHL class all day, and Sunday he had to go in to work for a little while. He has to work again this Saturday too. Recruiting duty is such a drag. I'm fine with the uneventful-ness though b/c I needed a break. I ordered a pair of nursing pjs, a nursing gown, a robe from Gap for the hospital, and new parts to my breastpump last week too. Kinda splurged a little bit, but I mean, I think I deserve a couple pairs of nursing pjs. LoL. I also registered at the hospital & started to pack my and Austin's hospital bag! I am trying to be more prepared for the expected & unexpected. Last time I was not prepared at all with a hospital bag. Granted, I was admitted to the hospital unexpectedly, but I should have been more prepared. Anyway, nothing too exciting going on this week. Next week I have an appointment, so I might have more to write :) til' next time..

 How far along?: 33 weeks.
Sleep: I've been sleeping pretty well still. I have to pee a lot, but I drink a ton of water.
Best moment this week: just hanging with my Con. Soaking up these last few weeks of just us.
Movement: He rolls and gets those feet stuck. Hurts!
Symptoms: Heartburn, movement.
Food cravings:  Watermelon.
Food aversions: No real aversions, but I prefer fruits and veggies over junk.
Gender: BOY!
Labor Signs: Braxton Hicks are pretty rough this time around, but nothing serious.
Belly Button in or out?: flat. lol
What I miss: not having back pain!
What I am looking forward to: May 21st :)
Weekly Wisdom: Enjoy your pregnancy and try not to worry about the "what ifs."
Milestones: Austin is a little over 4 pounds and has passed the 17-inch mark. He's rapidly losing that wrinkled, alien look and his skeleton is hardening.

32 weeks!

    32 weeks! My doctor's office is considering me 32 weeks today, and I'll take it! My doctor's appointment went well today. Everything is still looking great, I didn't gain any weight from last appointment 3 weeks ago (thank the good Lord), and we scheduled my c -section date. Austin's birthday is to be on May 21, 2013 :) I am just praying so hard to God that this is, in fact, when his birthday will be. Connor came too early at 35 weeks 4 days, and I want Austin to be a full term baby.  It is scheduled for 12 noon, and I just know I'm going to be starving. haha, but 12 noon sounds good to me. I'll have the afternoon to recover and in to the night. I'm beginning to go to the doctor every 2 weeks now, so my next appointment will be April 15th! I will continue to keep everyone updated, and please keep me and Austin in your prayers! They have been working thus far :):)

How far along?: 32 weeks.
Sleep: I've been sleeping pretty well the past few nights.
Best moment this week: Doctor's appointment today. Knowing all is going well so far & scheduling the c- section :)
Movement: He rolls.
Smptoms: Oh I duno... this giant ball I'm carrying in my belly, back pain, heartburn... the list goes on.
Food cravings: Watermelon.
Food aversions: No real aversions, but I prefer fruits and veggies over junk.
Gender: BOY!
Labor Signs: Braxton Hicks are pretty rough this time around, but nothing serious.
Belly Button in or out?: flat. lol
What I miss: tying my shoes!
What I am looking forward to: May 21st :)
Weekly Wisdom: Listen to your body. If you feel like you are pushing yourself too far, you probably are.
Mlestones: Austin is probably over 4 lbs by now and about 18 inches long.

Weeks 27-31

   Yeah, 5 weeks have passed & I haven't updated, but we have been without a computer! Finallly we bought a new one today, and here I am! :) Well, obviously I took the glucose screen test, and when I took that my doctor also tested for my platelet count. I passed the glucose tolerance test, AND my platelets are normal. Right now they are at 151,000. Normal is 140,000-400,000. Last time, my platelets were about 130,000 at this time. So, they are low end normal, but they are NORMAL. My doctor isn't concerned. I haven't been swelling yet either. I drink tons and tons of water, and I avoid food that has a lot of sodium. If I am busy all day long, then yeah, I will notice my wedding rings feel a little bit tighter, and my feet look a little rough, but it goes away as soon as I put my feet up and drink more water. My blood pressure has been remaining consistently low. At my 3D ultrasound it was 110/62. I can remember it being a lot higher this time last pregnancy because when I went in to get my results from the glucose test, they took my BP twice b/c it was high the first time. I am praying I don't get pre-eclampsia this time, but I know it is something we will have to just wait and see about. Weight gain is annoying. I am at +30 right now, but I am very aware of what I put in my body, so I know I'm not just eating crappy food and that's where it is coming from. In fact, Adam and I invested in a Juicer! We love it, and I feel great being able to juice and get tons of nutrients to Austin quickly. We finally finished Austin's nursery as well! Honestly, we finished about as quick as we started which was last week. Haha. Mom and Kristen helped me make Austin's bedding, so I had to wait until they got here. I got a sewing machine for Christmas, but I kept thredding it wrong, so Mom came and helped me figure it all out. I am so excited about that.
   We had my family visit March 20-25. My mom, Kristen, and my nephew Finn flew in on Wednesday, and then Friday Bonnie, Daryl, and my niece Camryn surprised me!! It was awesome. It was a very full house, but awesome. :) Connor LOVED Finn. I was nervous about how he would be with me and Adam holding the baby, but he didn't care. He cared more when Adam held Finn, which is honestly a good thing b/c I can't be breastfeeding while Connor is yanking on me. haha But, Connor would grab Finn's bottle for him and help him drink it, give him his paci, play with him. It's so cute. I just know he is going to make such an awesome big brother! He kissed my belly the other day for the first time too. He knows there is a baby in there, but I don't know if he really gets it. He will soon enough though! As soon as everyone left, we all got colds. Yuck. We are still fighting them off, but hopefully the weather will clear it up.
    In Connor news, he is almost TWO! I cannot believe that my little baby boy is almost two years old. He is such a boy. 150% all boy. For example, tonight he was riding one of his little ride on toys through the 'hood. Barefoot, in a diaper, and just pushing a long. When we got to one of the hills in the 'hood, he just took off. He wanted to see how fast he could go and had this HUGE grin on his face when Adam finally caught up to him. It's  a wonder he didn't flip off of the thing! He did this for about 30 minutes, and then Adam noticed a gash on his toe. Yeah, dripping blood off of his foot, and he didn't even notice it or he just didn't care. He is crazy, and I love it. He has this awesome, huge, crazy personality that makes me and Adam crack up every day. He is still obsessed with his daddy, and he has a newfound love for Mickey Mouse. Kiki and Shout from the Fresh Beat Band have been pushed aside for the time being! I will post some pics soon! :)

How far along?: 31weeks 4 days.
Sleep: Insomnia hit right at 31 weeks. It is partly because Austin decides to roll around right when I lay down for bed. Not to mention I get up 100 times/night to pee.
Best moment this week: Well over the past few weeks, I've really enjoyed my family being here, finishing up Austin's nursery, and just cherishing our last weeks of being a family of 3.
Movement: He is beginning to roll. I love watching my stomach move in waves.
Symptoms: Oh I duno... this giant ball I'm carrying in my belly, back pain, heartburn... the list goes on.
Food cravings: Watermelon.
Food aversions: No real aversions, but I prefer fruits and veggies over junk.
Gender: BOY!
Labor Signs: Braxton Hicks are pretty rough this time around, but nothing serious.
Belly Button in or out?: flat. lol
What I miss: sleeping well without peeing 100 times/night.
What I am looking forward to: Doctor's appt. tomorrow & hopefully scheduling the c section.
Weekly Wisdom: Listen to your body. If you feel like you are pushing yourself too far, you probably are.
Mlestones: Austin is probably over 4 lbs by now and about 18 inches long.

Me and Austin. 28 weeks.

 Yummy pulled pork

 My fam at the rodeo!

 His toe that he busted... and didn't care about.

 Connor and Nana

26 weeks!

     One more week in the second trimester! I cannot believe I will be in the third trimester next week! It is insane. I feel so gigantic, and I know I'm only going to get bigger. Other than just feeling huge and seeing everything jiggle, I feel okay. I'm a bit slower to move these days. Connor wants me in one room and then in another room. He grabs my hand and gets frustrated if it takes me 10 seconds to stand. Haha. Ya can't really explain why you are so incredibly slow to a 22 month old. I haven't started swelling yet. My rings still fit, my feet are still boney, and I haven't really been retaining any water. I've been pretty careful about the sodium intake though, and I drink a lot of water. Hopefully that will keep me from swelling too terribly. The weight gain sucks, but I'm still "on target" according to the calculators. I know it will come off, but I'm at the point of just feeling big and uncomfortable. I'm so excited though! Things are really coming together, we have the double stroller set up, and I finalllly bought Austin a couple of outfits. I am having a really hard time buying him clothes though since Austin and Connor are the same seasons in size. I'm going to a "Just Between friends" sale tomorrow, so I will hopefully get more stuff there as well. :) Well, there isn't a whole lot else going on, so here's my survey and a couple of pics!

How far along?: 26 weeks
Sleep: ehh, it's getting tough.
Best moment this week: The double stroller!
Movement: Yes! I love it.
Symptoms: kicks, cramps, back pain, growing...
Food cravings: ice cream.
Food aversions: Nah.
Gender: BOY!
Labor Signs: Oh no, no.
Belly Button in or out?: IN.
What I miss: Being quick!
What I am looking forward to: Mom, Kristen and Finn coming to visit!
Weekly Wisdom: Rest rest rest. The house can wait.
Milestones: Austin is almost 2 lbs and 14 inches long from head to heel! :)

24 weeks... (missed 22 and 23)

     I am SO bad about updating. What is wrong with me? Not like I'm 6 months pregnant with an extremely tiring 21 month old to tend to. ;) But, really I've been so tired. I was reading through the blog when I was pregnant with Connor. I was really great about updating then.. and I read my post at 23 weeks. It said something a long the lines of "He must have hit a growth spurt because I've been sleeping alll day." Man, that must have been tough for me. HA. But, other than just being down right tired, I am good. I have a few aches and pains (mainly in my back at night), but I am still sleeping well and am enjoying feeling Austin kick and squirm. I did hit a major growth spurt between weeks 21 and 24 though. I will post pics in that order. I just got huge. And I'm at that point now, where it's not just a cute little baby bump. I am getting the "baby" ass, "baby" thighs, "baby" arms.. well you get my drift. It ain't pretty. My weight gain isn't crazy. I've gained the same so far as I did with Con at this point. I didn't gain a whole lot with Con until the end when I started retaining tons of water, so I feel good about it. Besides, my best friend said it best... "How many times in your life are you pregnant? And how many times can you enjoy that red velvet cake and not feel bad about it?" hahaha. I love Lauren and how she makes me feel great even when I feel like a walrus :) Calm down, I eat my fruits and veggies and am careful about what I put in my body, but I give in a little if I really want ice cream and cake and cake. (I sang that as I wrote it) But, really, I remember this point in pregnancy with Connor when I started looking in the mirror and cringing instead of smiling. I know I have so  much to be thankful for, and I'm incredibly blessed, so I'm trying to be positive about every little bit. I am lucky, and I really do enjoy being pregnant. I really enjoyed being pregnant with Connor as well. The end got a little rough, but despite the bad delivery, it was a peaceful pregnancy. I have my 24 week appointment on Monday! I can't believe I'm already 6 months, and Austin is "viable." This past weekend, Adam and I got the nursery together! I still have to make his bedding and decorate, but we removed the guest room furniture and set up the crib. It's so weird to see Connor in his big boy room and then look next to his room and see the baby nursery. I feel like he should still be in the crib, but he does so well in his big boy bed! He is getting so smart, sweet, and big! He has been communicating really well, and he loves to hug Mommy and Daddy and give us kisses. At night, we read before bed, and he runs in his room saying "read read read!" He doesn't really enjoy us reading to him, but he loves to point out everything he sees. Dog, girl, elephant, balloon, cat (eeeoww), lion, tractor, cow, apple.. etc. He can count too! He has a counting book, and he will point and count. He can count to 10. He usually skips a few numbers, but he did it on his own today, and I'm SO proud! I cannot wait to see my boys play and learn together. :)

Until next time, I'll leave ya with a survey and my gigantor growing belly!

How far along?: 24 weeks
Sleep: Doing well
Best moment this week: getting the nursery together.
Movement: Yes!
Symptoms: kicks, back pain
Food cravings: Nothing particular. Maybe twizzlers:)
 Food aversions: Not so much anymore.
Gender: BOY!
Labor Signs: Oh no, no.
Belly Button in or out?: IN.
What I miss: a glass of wine.
What I am looking forward to: Mom, Kristen and Finn coming to visit!
Weekly Wisdom: Rest rest rest. The house can wait.
Milestones: our baby's growing steadily, having gained about 4 ounces since last week. That puts him at just over a pound. Since he's almost a foot long (picture an ear of corn), he cuts a pretty lean figure at this point, but his body is filling out proportionally and he'll soon start to plump up. His brain is also growing quickly now, and his taste buds are continuing to develop. His lungs are developing "branches" of the respiratory "tree" as well as cells that produce surfactant, a substance that will help his air sacs inflate once he hits the outside world. His skin is still thin and translucent, but that will start to change soon.

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Identity

    I'm a mom and a military wife. Lately, I've really been struggling with who I am instead of what I am. Let's not get confused here, I absolutely adore my life, my beautiful son, beautiful boy #2 on the way, and my amazing husband. I also feel incredibly blessed to be able to stay home with my son. My husband works extremely hard and the hours are long. Most days, I wake up with my son, fulfill household duties, play with my toddler, and put him to bed. I usually rush rush rush to pick up after he is in bed, and then I plop down on the couch and have "me" time. I realized that by putting everyone else first, I've really let myself get put on the back burner, and I've kinda just lost my identity. Last Thursday a friend of mine was asking people to call a Mary Kay live call so she can be in the running for a new car. I thought, what the hell? I'll help! Connor was in bed, and I was bored anyway. Listening to the lady talk, I was intrigued. Not only because it seemed like a great way to make some extra money for my family, that we can always use, but because it seemed like something to get excited about that would be just for ME. I talked to Adam, signed up, and haven't looked back. Now, it's only been a week, but I know it's going to be a great thing. I didn't sing up to make a million bucks. I really signed up to help bring in any extra money, and also to help me get excited about something for myself. My husband has been incredibly supportive, and he has actually pushed me and helped spread the word that I am now selling Mary Kay. I want to be the absolute best mommy and wife that I can be, but I know in order to be great at what I am, I have to love who I am. Yes, I can now add Mary Kay beauty consultant to what I am, but it's more than that for me. I'm embarking on something that gives me pride and accomplishment, and in that I can be proud of who I am. I'm excited to continue on this journey, and I'm overwhelmed by all of the support I have gotten from family and friends. I even got to talk to a friend I haven't talked to in so long on the phone today because she also sells Mary Kay, and called to offer me advice and words of encouragement. How awesome is that? I'm excited to start 2013 out in a way I didn't think I would!

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21 weeks and changes!

      21 weeks, and holy growth spurt! I knew Austin was going through a growth spurt because I was so exhausted all last week.. and hungry. I was starving. The scale hates me this week, but I remember being pregnant with Connor and having weeks of major weight gain and weeks and weeks with none! By major, I mean 3 lbs. Not to mention, he was kicking less for a couple of days, but he is back at it full force today. Speaking of growth spurts, Connor has been eating us out of house and home! If this is a glimpse into out future, Adam and I are in for it! I'm feeling good these days. Besides being tired and hungry last week, I feel good. This is definitely my favorite time in pregnancy, so I'm trying to enjoy it as much as I can because I know how exhausting it gets in the weeks to come. When it hasn't been raining, Connor and I have been enjoying the park and the zoo! Yesterday we met up with our friends Kelly and Brady at the Houston Zoo. The boys had so much fun, and Connor slept the entire way home. It wasn't as long as his normal nap, but I was fine with it because last night was his first night in his toddler bed! He did awesome! I am so proud of him. Last night it only took 2 walks back to his room and an explanation that this was his "big boy bed and it is night night." He cried off and on, but never came back out and when I went in to check on him, he was passed out in his bed. Not on the floor, not half on the floor, but fully asleep in his big boy bed! Nap time today was the same deal, but it was only 1 walk back to his room, fewer tears, and he is asleep :) I was really worried he would have such a hard time, but he seems to love his bed. I hardly slept last night because I was sure he was going to roam the house, but he did not, and when he woke up this morning, he was talking to his stuffed animals until I went in to get him. Now, we have to finish decorating his fire truck themed room. Adam spray painted the guest room furniture for Con's room, and I ordered fire truck drawer knobs and fabric to hang on the wall. I have a few more things to get, but I'm putting it together bit by bit because we have to also start on Austin's nursery! I plan on making/sewing the majority of Austin's bedding and nursery decorations. I'm excited! I keep thinking, "oh I have time," but the time is really flying by!! Anyway, until next time..

 How far along?: 21 weeks
Sleep: Good these days!
Best moment this week: hanging out with friends at the zoo!
Movement: Yes!
Symptoms: aches, pains, movements :)
Food cravings: I keep craving chipotle, but have only given in once!
Food aversions: Not so much anymore.
Gender: BOY!
Labor Signs: Oh no, no.
Belly Button in or out?: IN.
What I miss: a glass of wine.
What I am looking forward to: Getting the nursery together!
Weekly Wisdom: Pregnancy comes with its random aches, pains, and strange symptoms. Enjoy your pregnancy and try not to be paranoid.
 Milestones:
Your baby now weighs about three-quarters of a pound and is approximately 10 1/2 inches long — the length of a carrot. You may soon feel like she's practicing martial arts as her initial fluttering movements turn into full-fledged kicks and nudges. You may also discover a pattern to her activity as you get to know her better. In other developments, your baby's eyebrows and lids are present now, and if you're having a girl, her vagina has begun to form as well.

3 years married to my love!

   Yesterday, January 14th, Husband and I celebrated our third anniversary! Wow, we have come a long way in three years. We have had a lot thrown our way in three years. From Adam getting flagged for recruiting duty, moving from NC to TX, My traumatic delivery of Connor and Adam sticking by my side and proving how amazing he truly is, and now we are expecting another sweet boy. It has been a crazy three year ride, and I am so happy with my life. Next year Adam is done with recruiting duty, and his USMC contract is up. We are not sure what life will throw our way, (whether he will stay in or follow a different path) but we will surely go through it together as a family of four! I've been a stay at home mom since pregnant with Connor, and we are not planning for that to change for a few more years. I truly feel so blessed to be able to share this journey with the one man I cannot imagine my life without. Adam is my best friend, and even through the times when I want to ring his neck, he somehow brings a smile to my face. He is funny, genuine, thoughtful, and so sweet. He loves me despite my many flaws, and for that I am incredibly grateful. Love you babe. Happy 3 years, and here is to MANY more!

20 weeks. HALFWAY through!

            WHAT?! I cannot even believe I am really over halfway through! (Scheduled c-section is usually a week-ish earlier than the due date) Bonkers! I have so much to do, and I keep thinking I have all of this time, but I don't. Connor came over 4 weeks early, and I am really praying Austin stays put for at least 38/39 weeks, but I want to be prepared early enough! We are starting on the boys' rooms probably this week or the next, and I'm so excited! Ready to move Con up to the big boy bed! I think he is ready. He doesn't try to escape from his crib, but I want to move him into his big boy bed before he thinks it is a game to escape. He is really great about going to bed too, so hopefully it won't be that hard. I'm sure we will have a long few nights though. We are all sickness free in the house, besides Con's snot face and little cough. I am pretty sure we will be fighting colds all winter long though. RSV symptoms linger. No, he doesn't have it, but the symptoms linger since it affected his respiratory system and whatnot. Speaking of Connor, he has really started to throw tantrums. It is lovely! He gently lays himself on the floor and THEN starts crying. bahaha. My method with this is walking away. It usually works. Connor is incredibly happy outdoors, and as long as he isn't bored, he doesn't usually throw a temper tantrum. Busy little bee. The sun is finally shining, but I don't think it will last. We spent over a week indoors due to rain. Hello CABIN FEVER. We were miserable. I hate having him watch a lot of t.v., so I turned it off or put it on music and we played and read books.. every day. Cleaning is overrated. (just kidding), but I'm trying to spend more time playing and laughing with my sweet boy, and less time worrying about little messes. I think the hard part is really that at the end of the day I'm too exhausted to run around and clean clean clean, pick up pick up pick up, like I used to do. So, to hell with it! .. Moving On ..

      Today, at the anatomy scan, Austin looked fabulous!! I just absolutely love seeing his sweet face on the ultrasound. Can't say he was as happy to see us. (Not that he can actually see us, but you get it). He was not feeling it, but the sonographer said all of his organs and everything look perfect. :) I asked her about the "sore spot" on the upper right side of my stomach, and she checked the spot, but it looked fine. Everything looked fine, and she even checked my kidneys, gall bladder, etc. (said she technically isn't supposed to, but it looked fine). The doctor came in later and I asked her. She said that is where my bowels are. Bahha. sweet. Pretty fantastic. Gotta love how pregnancy can affect your body. I've gained about 10 lbs. Not great, not bad. Not really worried about it. I'm aware of what I put in my body, and I am busy all day every day. My blood pressure was fine, and the doctor just said we will wish any pre-eclampsia and thrombocytopenia away, but that usually doesn't show up until the 3rd trimester anyway. I'm confident in this team of doctors I have, and I'm confident in my God. :) For now, all is perfect, and I'm in love with my baby boy!

 How far along?: 20 weeks
Sleep: Eh. I have to be careful turning over. It hurts if I make sudden movements!
Best moment this week: Seeing my baby's sweet face on the ultrasound!
Movement: Yes!
Symptoms: aches, pains, movements :)
Food cravings: crap! lol
 Food aversions: Not so much anymore.
Gender: BOY!
Labor Signs: Oh no, no.
Belly Button in or out?: IN.
What I miss: Being able to bend over without thinking about ti.
What I am looking forward to: Getting the nursery together!
Weekly Wisdom: Everything is pretty much "normal" in pregnancy, but don't be afraid to mention any aches and pains to you doctor.
 Milestones: our baby weighs about 10 1/2 ounces now. He's also around 6 1/2 inches long from head to bottom and about 10 inches from head to heel — the length of a banana. (For the first 20 weeks, when a baby's legs are curled up against his torso and hard to measure, measurements are taken from the top of his head to his bottom — the "crown to rump" measurement. After 20 weeks, he's measured from head to toe.)
He's swallowing more these days, which is good practice for his digestive system. He's also producing meconium, a black, sticky by-product of digestion. This gooey substance will accumulate in his bowels, and you'll see it in his first soiled diaper (some babies pass meconium in the womb or during delivery).