Stage Fiver

            If I say Connor has been attached to my hip, that will be an understatement. This child has been so clingy! I don't really mind to be honest. It kind of makes me feel good, even if that does sound crazy. I enjoy being "wanted" and "needed," but sometimes I also need a Mommy moment, and I only get those when Connor is napping and Adam is at work. (Last night, for example, Connor wouldn't fall asleep unless he was AT LEAST holding my hand, LOL. Is it my own fault? Probs). I am not going to say I'm happy to see Adam back at work, but I'm ready to have "me" time. And Adam gets way stressed when Connor has a bad day.. which stresses me out more. I love being home with Connor, even on the bad days. I'm his mommy, and God really did work some kind of miracle in me because I swear I have never been this patient with ANYTHING. And, with this whole being a stay at home mom talk, I'll get to my next news. I applied for a "teller" position at a bank. Why, may you ask? I HAVE NO IDEA. But, it was dumb because I didn't want that job. Maybe I did it just because I was curious to take the assessment. It was fun. Okay, and then I almost went on the interview this morning.. then I realized that was dumb. I would only be working 20 hrs/ week making a little over $11/hr. Uhm, that's not worth it! If I work, which I do eventually want to work outside of the home, it needs to be a job that is worth it. I need to make more than $11/hr if I'm going to leave my baby in daycare. Not that I am against anyone working! I'll explain further... my husband as you know, is a Marine, and right now he is on recruiting duty. His hours are insane. He leaves the house around 8 am and works until 8 or 9 pm. Some mornings he is out of the door earlier, and sometimes he is even up at 2 am. There are plenty of nights he has worked later than 9 pm, and he works weekends most of the time. I feel like the only stability in Connor's life is me at home with him. As he gets older, I have so much fun stuff planned. Trips to the zoo, activities... things I want to teach him. I guess I just feel that if I CAN be at home with him, why not? We aren't struggling with $$, and while an extra income would be awesome, like I said, it needs to be worth it. So, at last minute, I decided to not go to the interview, and Adam supported me. As far as New Years resolutions go, Adam and I made one to savee as much $$ that we can, and spend WAY less. I am going to buy a big white board and track our budget each pay period. I know we can save more than we have been. Also, I plan on cooking healthy meals for Adam to come home to. Even if he gets home late, and his meals are cold! LoL. And starting tomorrow, I will be in the gym 3 days a week. Monday/Wednesday/Friday. Those are my resolutions. And, of course, I have lots of adventures planned for Connor and me. Cheers to 2012! In other news.. Connor is forever standing up in his crib. Good thing we lowered it, but naptime/bedtime is almost impossible these days!