Identity

    I'm a mom and a military wife. Lately, I've really been struggling with who I am instead of what I am. Let's not get confused here, I absolutely adore my life, my beautiful son, beautiful boy #2 on the way, and my amazing husband. I also feel incredibly blessed to be able to stay home with my son. My husband works extremely hard and the hours are long. Most days, I wake up with my son, fulfill household duties, play with my toddler, and put him to bed. I usually rush rush rush to pick up after he is in bed, and then I plop down on the couch and have "me" time. I realized that by putting everyone else first, I've really let myself get put on the back burner, and I've kinda just lost my identity. Last Thursday a friend of mine was asking people to call a Mary Kay live call so she can be in the running for a new car. I thought, what the hell? I'll help! Connor was in bed, and I was bored anyway. Listening to the lady talk, I was intrigued. Not only because it seemed like a great way to make some extra money for my family, that we can always use, but because it seemed like something to get excited about that would be just for ME. I talked to Adam, signed up, and haven't looked back. Now, it's only been a week, but I know it's going to be a great thing. I didn't sing up to make a million bucks. I really signed up to help bring in any extra money, and also to help me get excited about something for myself. My husband has been incredibly supportive, and he has actually pushed me and helped spread the word that I am now selling Mary Kay. I want to be the absolute best mommy and wife that I can be, but I know in order to be great at what I am, I have to love who I am. Yes, I can now add Mary Kay beauty consultant to what I am, but it's more than that for me. I'm embarking on something that gives me pride and accomplishment, and in that I can be proud of who I am. I'm excited to continue on this journey, and I'm overwhelmed by all of the support I have gotten from family and friends. I even got to talk to a friend I haven't talked to in so long on the phone today because she also sells Mary Kay, and called to offer me advice and words of encouragement. How awesome is that? I'm excited to start 2013 out in a way I didn't think I would!

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21 weeks and changes!

      21 weeks, and holy growth spurt! I knew Austin was going through a growth spurt because I was so exhausted all last week.. and hungry. I was starving. The scale hates me this week, but I remember being pregnant with Connor and having weeks of major weight gain and weeks and weeks with none! By major, I mean 3 lbs. Not to mention, he was kicking less for a couple of days, but he is back at it full force today. Speaking of growth spurts, Connor has been eating us out of house and home! If this is a glimpse into out future, Adam and I are in for it! I'm feeling good these days. Besides being tired and hungry last week, I feel good. This is definitely my favorite time in pregnancy, so I'm trying to enjoy it as much as I can because I know how exhausting it gets in the weeks to come. When it hasn't been raining, Connor and I have been enjoying the park and the zoo! Yesterday we met up with our friends Kelly and Brady at the Houston Zoo. The boys had so much fun, and Connor slept the entire way home. It wasn't as long as his normal nap, but I was fine with it because last night was his first night in his toddler bed! He did awesome! I am so proud of him. Last night it only took 2 walks back to his room and an explanation that this was his "big boy bed and it is night night." He cried off and on, but never came back out and when I went in to check on him, he was passed out in his bed. Not on the floor, not half on the floor, but fully asleep in his big boy bed! Nap time today was the same deal, but it was only 1 walk back to his room, fewer tears, and he is asleep :) I was really worried he would have such a hard time, but he seems to love his bed. I hardly slept last night because I was sure he was going to roam the house, but he did not, and when he woke up this morning, he was talking to his stuffed animals until I went in to get him. Now, we have to finish decorating his fire truck themed room. Adam spray painted the guest room furniture for Con's room, and I ordered fire truck drawer knobs and fabric to hang on the wall. I have a few more things to get, but I'm putting it together bit by bit because we have to also start on Austin's nursery! I plan on making/sewing the majority of Austin's bedding and nursery decorations. I'm excited! I keep thinking, "oh I have time," but the time is really flying by!! Anyway, until next time..

 How far along?: 21 weeks
Sleep: Good these days!
Best moment this week: hanging out with friends at the zoo!
Movement: Yes!
Symptoms: aches, pains, movements :)
Food cravings: I keep craving chipotle, but have only given in once!
Food aversions: Not so much anymore.
Gender: BOY!
Labor Signs: Oh no, no.
Belly Button in or out?: IN.
What I miss: a glass of wine.
What I am looking forward to: Getting the nursery together!
Weekly Wisdom: Pregnancy comes with its random aches, pains, and strange symptoms. Enjoy your pregnancy and try not to be paranoid.
 Milestones:
Your baby now weighs about three-quarters of a pound and is approximately 10 1/2 inches long — the length of a carrot. You may soon feel like she's practicing martial arts as her initial fluttering movements turn into full-fledged kicks and nudges. You may also discover a pattern to her activity as you get to know her better. In other developments, your baby's eyebrows and lids are present now, and if you're having a girl, her vagina has begun to form as well.

3 years married to my love!

   Yesterday, January 14th, Husband and I celebrated our third anniversary! Wow, we have come a long way in three years. We have had a lot thrown our way in three years. From Adam getting flagged for recruiting duty, moving from NC to TX, My traumatic delivery of Connor and Adam sticking by my side and proving how amazing he truly is, and now we are expecting another sweet boy. It has been a crazy three year ride, and I am so happy with my life. Next year Adam is done with recruiting duty, and his USMC contract is up. We are not sure what life will throw our way, (whether he will stay in or follow a different path) but we will surely go through it together as a family of four! I've been a stay at home mom since pregnant with Connor, and we are not planning for that to change for a few more years. I truly feel so blessed to be able to share this journey with the one man I cannot imagine my life without. Adam is my best friend, and even through the times when I want to ring his neck, he somehow brings a smile to my face. He is funny, genuine, thoughtful, and so sweet. He loves me despite my many flaws, and for that I am incredibly grateful. Love you babe. Happy 3 years, and here is to MANY more!

20 weeks. HALFWAY through!

            WHAT?! I cannot even believe I am really over halfway through! (Scheduled c-section is usually a week-ish earlier than the due date) Bonkers! I have so much to do, and I keep thinking I have all of this time, but I don't. Connor came over 4 weeks early, and I am really praying Austin stays put for at least 38/39 weeks, but I want to be prepared early enough! We are starting on the boys' rooms probably this week or the next, and I'm so excited! Ready to move Con up to the big boy bed! I think he is ready. He doesn't try to escape from his crib, but I want to move him into his big boy bed before he thinks it is a game to escape. He is really great about going to bed too, so hopefully it won't be that hard. I'm sure we will have a long few nights though. We are all sickness free in the house, besides Con's snot face and little cough. I am pretty sure we will be fighting colds all winter long though. RSV symptoms linger. No, he doesn't have it, but the symptoms linger since it affected his respiratory system and whatnot. Speaking of Connor, he has really started to throw tantrums. It is lovely! He gently lays himself on the floor and THEN starts crying. bahaha. My method with this is walking away. It usually works. Connor is incredibly happy outdoors, and as long as he isn't bored, he doesn't usually throw a temper tantrum. Busy little bee. The sun is finally shining, but I don't think it will last. We spent over a week indoors due to rain. Hello CABIN FEVER. We were miserable. I hate having him watch a lot of t.v., so I turned it off or put it on music and we played and read books.. every day. Cleaning is overrated. (just kidding), but I'm trying to spend more time playing and laughing with my sweet boy, and less time worrying about little messes. I think the hard part is really that at the end of the day I'm too exhausted to run around and clean clean clean, pick up pick up pick up, like I used to do. So, to hell with it! .. Moving On ..

      Today, at the anatomy scan, Austin looked fabulous!! I just absolutely love seeing his sweet face on the ultrasound. Can't say he was as happy to see us. (Not that he can actually see us, but you get it). He was not feeling it, but the sonographer said all of his organs and everything look perfect. :) I asked her about the "sore spot" on the upper right side of my stomach, and she checked the spot, but it looked fine. Everything looked fine, and she even checked my kidneys, gall bladder, etc. (said she technically isn't supposed to, but it looked fine). The doctor came in later and I asked her. She said that is where my bowels are. Bahha. sweet. Pretty fantastic. Gotta love how pregnancy can affect your body. I've gained about 10 lbs. Not great, not bad. Not really worried about it. I'm aware of what I put in my body, and I am busy all day every day. My blood pressure was fine, and the doctor just said we will wish any pre-eclampsia and thrombocytopenia away, but that usually doesn't show up until the 3rd trimester anyway. I'm confident in this team of doctors I have, and I'm confident in my God. :) For now, all is perfect, and I'm in love with my baby boy!

 How far along?: 20 weeks
Sleep: Eh. I have to be careful turning over. It hurts if I make sudden movements!
Best moment this week: Seeing my baby's sweet face on the ultrasound!
Movement: Yes!
Symptoms: aches, pains, movements :)
Food cravings: crap! lol
 Food aversions: Not so much anymore.
Gender: BOY!
Labor Signs: Oh no, no.
Belly Button in or out?: IN.
What I miss: Being able to bend over without thinking about ti.
What I am looking forward to: Getting the nursery together!
Weekly Wisdom: Everything is pretty much "normal" in pregnancy, but don't be afraid to mention any aches and pains to you doctor.
 Milestones: our baby weighs about 10 1/2 ounces now. He's also around 6 1/2 inches long from head to bottom and about 10 inches from head to heel — the length of a banana. (For the first 20 weeks, when a baby's legs are curled up against his torso and hard to measure, measurements are taken from the top of his head to his bottom — the "crown to rump" measurement. After 20 weeks, he's measured from head to toe.)
He's swallowing more these days, which is good practice for his digestive system. He's also producing meconium, a black, sticky by-product of digestion. This gooey substance will accumulate in his bowels, and you'll see it in his first soiled diaper (some babies pass meconium in the womb or during delivery).